Hello, hello, hello!!
Haven’t posted anything in a while, but I am just sitting at a Starbucks(that I walked to from my lovely apartment) trying to do some school work but I keep finding myself drifting focus from my school work. I keep looking out the window and just thinking about life. I know I talk about finding what sets your soul on fire and determining your purpose in life, and honestly every time I think I have that figured out something changes. This is the one reason I don’t like school, and if you know me you know how much I love school and continuing to learn and gain knowledge. The more I further my education the more people I meet and the more life doors are opened to me. At the heart and center of what I want to do with my future I know I want to help people and make a difference in the lives of others, but each semester there are more avenues presented to me through which I can achieve that goal.
What has remained the same though, is that I know I want to do something with nutrition and do something with a gym, but recently other thoughts have come to my head about what I could do beyond that. Another thing that gets me is the idea of having to start over in a completely new place, if and when I get accepted to a PhD program. This idea scares me a little, unlike going off and starting college and graduate school away from my family, this time I don’t have the safety net of knowing I will have people who are there to support me. Whether that was my teammates during undergrad or my friends that remained in the area when I started grad school. Pursuing my PhD means leaving my comfort zone and potentially starting out somewhere where I would have no one I knew, in a place far away from those I love. That is a really scary thought to me and sometimes makes me question whether this is something I want to do. But those thoughts don’t last long because, in my gut, I know my purpose is to use the opportunities I have been fortunate enough to experience to help others who may or may not have been afforded the bountiful luxuries I have had in my life. The way in which I do use these opportunities may change in my mind from day to day, but the core purpose has remained the same for as long as I can remember.
I guess I’ll never really figure out this life thing, but its nice to think I’m doing what I can do it to the best of my abilities. So I leave you all with this; trust your gut and keep seeking out what sets your soul on fire. Even if you never really figure it out, you can get very close, and hey you may even do something amazing during the process.